Mixed Feelings

After I wrote the post yesterday I watched 3 more episodes of Friends. And then went off to sleep. Luckily the portion wasn't much...being a quick reader I could complete it in the morning & succeed more or less in nailing the paper. Now the emptiness stares me. Like sirens calling out to sailors the goddess of waste beckons me,"Come back o prodigal son...thou have been gone for a long time now...you have worked hard & nows the time to idle away time doing nothing". But theres where my mixed feeling come in. I can't just do nothing. Every time I have to engage my mind with something or the other. Am going home on 1st December. Going there has off late lost some of its charm for me. Don't know why? Maybe theres something of the air of freedom in the hostel. You sleep when you want, you eat when you want, curse when you want. Bath in 5 days, brush in 2. Theres no one to say a word. In some ways its a pretty ideal kind of life. At home some one or the other keeps nagging. Not that I don't deserve it. But still life is to be lived in its own way. The main problem there is I will not be having net connection. Normally I spend 12 hours a day browsing & reading. So life at home feels disconnected sometimes. But still its going to be the last vacation at home. I have my joining in summer. So with a smile on my lips & a frown on my brow I am ready for the next month.