Mixed Feelings

After I wrote the post yesterday I watched 3 more episodes of Friends. And then went off to sleep. Luckily the portion wasn't much...being a quick reader I could complete it in the morning & succeed more or less in nailing the paper. Now the emptiness stares me. Like sirens calling out to sailors the goddess of waste beckons me,"Come back o prodigal son...thou have been gone for a long time now...you have worked hard & nows the time to idle away time doing nothing". But theres where my mixed feeling come in. I can't just do nothing. Every time I have to engage my mind with something or the other. Am going home on 1st December. Going there has off late lost some of its charm for me. Don't know why? Maybe theres something of the air of freedom in the hostel. You sleep when you want, you eat when you want, curse when you want. Bath in 5 days, brush in 2. Theres no one to say a word. In some ways its a pretty ideal kind of life. At home some one or the other keeps nagging. Not that I don't deserve it. But still life is to be lived in its own way. The main problem there is I will not be having net connection. Normally I spend 12 hours a day browsing & reading. So life at home feels disconnected sometimes. But still its going to be the last vacation at home. I have my joining in summer. So with a smile on my lips & a frown on my brow I am ready for the next month.

To Read Or Not Read

This time once more i rant about the miserable education system of ours. Thing is for 3 months(in a semester...that is 4 months-2 weeks of exam-2 weeks of study) I don't give a damn about what goes on in the college. Now 3 papers are over. The last one to go is tomorrow. If I know people at all its a normal thing to get all impatient before the last test, lose yourself in glorious daydreams about how great tomorrow will be when there is nothing more to study. Ever since junior school it has a been a thing with me....I celebrate the end of exams a day too soon to the effect that the actual time of celebration passes away in clouds of gloom & remorse...he he. Can't help being who I am??? So the last papers are tomorrow & i spent my evening in the following manner:
i) Watched 2 episodes of friends. I often keep some of the episodes on my PC. Who knows when I will need them? They are real relaxing some times.
ii)My branch is Metallurgical engg. But I thought of helping a friend from Computer science with distributed systems. One of my favorite topics is operating systems.
iii)Then i went to hotel for dinner. Wednesdays meal in the hostel isn't up to human standards.
iv)One my way back I stopped at the saloon for a shaving.
v)Watched 2 more episodes of Friends & now was roaming aimlessly over the internet(its my favorite pastime) when I thought of ending my merry making with a blog about my myopia of the mind.
vi)Hope I will muster the strength to open the xerox notes of my friends & actually read something before dozing off.
I intended this blog to be a diatribe on our vicious syllabus but have drifted away from it & since I feel real happy now I will save the bitching for another day.Goodnight.

Screw Attendance

Yesterday our attendance for the semester was released. I was surprised to see my name on the list & that too in a subject I had thought I had attended the most classes in. Exams begin after 2 days & my whole day got ruined taking care of this new thing. Man its not like I have my courses revised and digested a year before the exam. I start my preparation at last minute & so today happens to be a precious day to lose. After spending a day running around the campus from the academic to administrative sections it so happens that yesterday's news was a fiasco for many. It happens the teacher has misplaced the 2 out of 4 attendance sheets was so the calculation was based on 1/2 of the entries. What a joke??!!
Anyway what puzzles me is....why the f-- is attendance important? Like if a student gets ace grades without attending a single lecture do you praise his intelligence, confidence & independence OR do you condemn him for rejecting what he doesn't need? It is a very silly meaningless system i n fact...I say all students should get together with the common agenda of not attending a single class and bring high grades. Let the profs see how expendable they are...I say screw the attendance & while you are at it screw the profs as well.....:0

Ramblings

A thought.....

Isn't it strange how our expectations from life go on dwindling with the years until a time comes when good is simply the absence of bad…if there is any reading this please tell me if you haven’t felt this void of a goal sometime…..

Today the whole day I spent listening to songs….soft lyrical songs. I started with “poets of the fall”…then “cold play”….now am listening to “Pink Floyd”. First I would tell that the masterpieces I am sure can hold their ground against any modern poetry….they are so hauntingly beautiful…if you haven’t listened to any of them please do….

The song running now(the 4^th consecutive re-run) is “Comfortably Numb”. The guitar background score is excellent but what really touches me are these lines…

When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown, the dream is gone
I have become comfortably numb

Somehow I feel ,except for the self-deceiving, feeling-good, optimistic yuppies, all in the journey of life can relate to these lines…..somehow I had thought writing more but am getting overcome a pleasant meditative lethargy….will give in now…….