Darkness

For the past one 3 hours i have been sitting in a dark 8x8 ft room reading an E-book on SQL Server--good one from Wrox. Anyway it just struck me many would be there who would find stepping into such a room unbearably stifling...my parents among them. Both of them have almost a fanatic attachment for bright light and fresh air. I on the other hand feel most at home in complete cool darkness...whether idling away time or studying something. I just typed away 4 lines of gibberish I wrote down for no reason. Anyway i love the dark. I feel stronger, more confident, more focused in complete darkness. I feel like some vicious animal waiting stealthily for his diurnal prey to make a mistake in the unfamiliar darkness. Its in the company of others that I feel most lonely..."they" always have something to talk about...usually that something is something i am not interested in. I enjoy my solitude...its never a complete solitude...its the silence of nature...something that always makes a buzz in your ear until you are "aware" of it. Think about it & slowly the orchestra of bugs, leaves and distant people recede into silence. Ideas good and bad keep popping up like a cork in water, I feel a sort of unison with the larger nature...I discover the rhythm we have long lost in the din and bustle of this sad, bad and mad world